Coming to God

so lately God has been teaching me, and i think i can speak for Rachel too and say us, about coming to Him. it has been so great at different times for us to come to Him together, but most of the time that doesn't work out because of the distance between me and her. i cherish the thought of being able to do that on a more regular basis once we are together.
i have been going through a spiritual drought lately. and though i don't often remember it at the time, it is always a matter of drawing closer to the Father. why i most often wallow in it and wonder why i am trapped in this funk, i am not really sure. probably because i'm pretty much a dummy. haha.
but the thing that i have been realizing lately is that most of the time i'm not pressing into Him because i am dwelling in some kind of sin. so for whatever reason i've gone back to the Adam & Eve model of hiding my shame from the Lord. but what a lie from the devil. praise the Lord that in spite of my shame He wants me to come to Him. and He wants me to tell Him about it, just like He asked Adam & Eve, even though He already knows all about it.
how amazing that we have a God that is so merciful to stoop down to the wretched man that i am and love me and care for me. and whats more longs and desires for us to come to Him so we could enjoy that love and care. all so that His wonderful and merciful name would be glorified that much more.
pray for Rachel and i that, whatever state we may find ourselves in, we would continue to draw close to the One who satisfies all our needs.
much love.
G

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Being Engaged Is Hard

so being engaged is hard for me.. i dunno if i'm the only one but i would guess not. it is such a weird feeling knowing that we are going to spend the rest of our lives together but that life can't really start yet. but i was reminded by a good friend the other day how wonderful a picture it is of our (the Church) current state, waiting to fully joined with Christ. so lately it has been so great when i have those feelings of longing to be with Rachel, i remind myself to long for Christ and love and longing He has for us, his bride.

i have also been reminded that this is a transition time, for us to enjoy our last few months of singleness and unattached living, and for us prepare for marriage and the new life ahead of us.

definitely my least favorite part of this time is all of the planning and decision making. so many things to worry about and so many things to figure out before that time gets here. but i know that it will all get worked out and that this is just the beginning of us living our new life.

I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that you not stir up or awaken love until it pleases.

Song of Songs 8:4

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

Ecclesiastes 3:1

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